More specifically Chenzhou.
I have these days quite often.
From the moment I open my eyes, my sweet kids are on my mind. All day long. And I absolutely love it.
Memories haunt my every moment.
I wonder how they're doing. I wonder how their normal routine is and how they spend their days when we're not there.
I wonder how Macy is. The beautiful girl I fell in love with... How is she feeling right now? Still bossing Taylor around and stealing piggy back rides from him? :) I wonder if anyone ever tickles her on her neck. Or dances with her. Or swings her upside down like she loves SO much. I wonder if she ever thinks of me. Because I think of her quite often.
I wonder if the kids miss us as much as we all miss them.
Somedays I wish I had all the money in the world to visit ALL the time.
Or maybe I'd just move there, instead.
Sometimes I think of what it would take or me to move over there. I seriously consider it sometimes.
That place has just stolen my heart... And I love it more than anywhere else I've ever been or lived.
I don't know why. It's a crummy part of town. It's so far away. It's so out of my comfort zone. But I love it. Definitely a love only God can give someone.
And I'm very grateful for that, but somedays it hurts. I miss it SO much, I don't even have words to describe it.
But for now, all I can do is save and pray for next year.
And today, I'll sit and dream the day away.
